Saturday, September 22, 2007

Rover loses his cool

I got off the phone with Snapple about 20 minutes ago.

It took me that long to calm down.

See, here's the thing about that "relationship": when I'm with her, I have a great time - she's fun, and she's cute, and the sex is great, and she likes football and video games, and I can't gross her out. But when I'm not with her, I basically don't think about her. And, on top of that, I want to make out with other girls.

I've been really honest with her about that (and let me be clear: I realize this isn't the best thing to hear, and everybody reacts differently), but every time we try to have a discussion about this, one of two things happens:

1. She tries really hard to convince me that we should give this a shot. "Well, if we like each other, and we have fun together, why wouldn't we try?"

2. She goes negative. "Was anything you said to me ever true?" "So, am I just a piece of meat to you?" "I thought you were different from the other guys, but I guess I was wrong."

It was the last comment tonight that sent me off the deep end. My response went something like this:

"JESUS CHRIST, Snapple, you always do this. You always bounce to the extreme! Not everything is black and white! I don't hate you, I'm not trying to disrespect you, I'm not trying just to fuck you. But I'm not in love with you, and I don't want you to be my girlfriend, either. It's in between. Sometimes things are in the middle!"

You know I'm upset when I take the Lord's name in vain. (And I'm sorry for it.)

Yes, I know, not the smoothest thing I've ever said. But I had had it. The line was quiet for a minute, and then she said, "I have to go. Good night."

So...I guess we'll see what happens next. Thoughts?


une petite chose said...

as a woman who has been in snapple's position before (with disastrous results for both parties) i feel that perhaps what she (subconsciously) wants is all or nothing. and unfortunately while the in between is great for you, you may have to choose on her behalf and give her nothing... because it will save both of you the aforementioned disastrous results.

make sense?

L. Britt said...

I completely agree with une petite. I remember not having the ability to see things in shades of gray...and you can't really rationalize her out of that mindset.

Another one may have bitten the dust. I say end it quick, because you are not a disrespectful person and it sounds like you want to, or may have already, hooked up with someone so end it now so that you can't be pegged as the bad guy.

Hot Librarian said...

If you're not willing to totally commit, do Snapple a favor and break it off. Being "in the middle" probably makes her feel pretty bad about herself.