I got off the phone with Snapple about 20 minutes ago.
It took me that long to calm down.
See, here's the thing about that "relationship": when I'm with her, I have a great time - she's fun, and she's cute, and the sex is great, and she likes football and video games, and I can't gross her out. But when I'm not with her, I basically don't think about her. And, on top of that, I want to make out with other girls.
I've been really honest with her about that (and let me be clear: I realize this isn't the best thing to hear, and everybody reacts differently), but every time we try to have a discussion about this, one of two things happens:
1. She tries really hard to convince me that we should give this a shot. "Well, if we like each other, and we have fun together, why wouldn't we try?"
2. She goes negative. "Was anything you said to me ever true?" "So, am I just a piece of meat to you?" "I thought you were different from the other guys, but I guess I was wrong."
It was the last comment tonight that sent me off the deep end. My response went something like this:
"JESUS CHRIST, Snapple, you always do this. You always bounce to the extreme! Not everything is black and white! I don't hate you, I'm not trying to disrespect you, I'm not trying just to fuck you. But I'm not in love with you, and I don't want you to be my girlfriend, either. It's in between. Sometimes things are in the middle!"
You know I'm upset when I take the Lord's name in vain. (And I'm sorry for it.)
Yes, I know, not the smoothest thing I've ever said. But I had had it. The line was quiet for a minute, and then she said, "I have to go. Good night."
So...I guess we'll see what happens next. Thoughts?