I was just on the phone with Snapple for an hour and thirty-eight minutes (I checked when I finally hung up). That comes after spending an hour on this phone with her during my dinner break. But, the split is official.
She was supposed to come out here next week, and I told her that I didn't think it was a good idea. That was kind of the basis for this move - I didn't want to have her out here for five days if I was feeling lukewarm about the whole thing.
It just comes down to the fact that she's not the girl for me, even though she treats me well, is nice to me, etc. But she just doesn't understand. She kept saying that it wasn't exclusive, and she wasn't putting pressure on me, and that we have a good time together, so why would it stop? And then I would ask, "So, even though I don't see any future with us, you still want to date?" And then she usually would respond with, "I just want you to give us a chance!"
This is why it was so frustrating.
And so now I feel like shit. She's really great, and I feel really bad about this. I guess I need to know that I did the right thing...because, right now, I'm just not sure.