I've been a bad blogger lately. I've been avoiding visiting anyone's blog, because my Harry Potter book doesn't arrive from London until Friday, and I'm scared to death that someone is going to spoil the whole book for me. (Don't even think of being that person - I will literally hunt you down.)
And, of course, I really haven't been a regular poster during my time in Rockport. That has a lot to do with the amount of time I spent rehearsing/learning lines/drinking, but it's also had a lot to do with the time I've been spending with Snapple.
But now I find myself in a dilemma.
I think she's a really great girl, I do. But, once I'm done here, I'm going on vacation for two weeks. Then I'm going to be back in NYC for two weeks, and then back out here for the next gig. Which means a lot of long distance.
I have no problems doing long distance (I've done it a few times before, and I would have done it for the Power Broker), but, if I'm going to do it, I have to be 100% into the person. I don't want to be one of those actors who goes from port to port, cheating on his girlfriend/fiancee/wife. (I'd rather be the actor who just makes out with someone in each port, then leaves with no hard feelings, dignity intact for all involved.)
AndI just don't think I'm there. I'm at 75-80%. Maybe. I'm pretty sure that, given the opportunity on my travels, I'd make out with someone.
Doesn't bode well for this relationship, does it?
It's frustrating, because I think she's right for me in a lot of ways. Sure, she does some things that get on my nerves, but overall I think she's really great. But...I'm just not ready. Chalk it up to bad timing, I guess.
There are 3 1/2 weeks left here, so things may change. And that would be great. But I'm not holding my breath.